My life has really taken a huge change for the worse. My role model and my inspiration and someone who I always loved since the moment I came into this world has now left. My mom was someone that I looked up to and someone I think about everyday. She lost her battle to cancer after almost 13 years of battling. She never gave up and even on her last days I was told that her smile never faded.
I definitely could spend my entire day saying all the great things and the things I miss about my mom and I’m sure I’ll have one of those days where I will, but today is not one of them.
The message I really want to express is the fact that although there are some horrible mothers out there, there is a huge amount of mothers that would give up their last breath to see you live another year into this world. Mothers that fight with you until their face turns red because they care so much about you and want what’s best for you. Mothers who always want to know where you’re going and especially who you’re with because they love you. As humans living in a first world country we take many things for granted but having a mother to care for you and help you every moment of your day should not be one of them.
Me and my mother didn’t always have a perfect relationship, we fought at times, we cried, we slammed doors and said things that only minutes passed before we regretted them. But at the end of the day I loved her no matter what and it’s definitely the greatest form of unconditional love I’ve ever witnessed.
When I left for school our whole relationship changed into something awesome. We never fought and there wasn’t a day I didn’t tell her that I loved her. She helped me through a lot and was always there to make me feel like life was wonderful and worth it. I had a horrible relationship with my boyfriend at the time and she was there every step of the way and helped me to move on. I needed her to be there and I needed her in my life to get through it all. When I was doing horrible in a course she stood by my side and always said she was proud of me and that it wasn’t the end of the world, as much as I thought it was. She gave me my space and didn’t smother me with phone calls but she always was hard to get off the phone whenever I called.
I just wish more people appreciated their mothers, not just on mother’s day or when they get sick, but now. Now, while they are always a phone call or text away and who are always reachable when you have a problem you need solving. I know I got dealt a wonderful card when it came to my parents but I know that I’m not alone and I know there are mothers out there who give all the love they can but don’t receive it.
I find it really interesting how human life can change so quickly (based on an evolutionary perspective). Now I’m not exactly talking about the way we look or anything concrete but I’m referring to a behavioural stand point. Lately I just creep on Facebook and let my “friend’s” lives become some sort of daily news which I am positive I am not alone on. But I’ve noticed how the norms of dating where I’m from have changed and definitely broadened. I’m talking about age difference and gender and how I’m seeing more of younger guys dating much older ladies. Mostly when we think of who should be older in a relationship we think of the guys being older, or well I do at least, and it’s different when I see women with kids dating a guy with not even a high school diploma. Now, I’m just voicing my opinion of things and personally it doesn’t affect me so I’m not going on a rant on how much I can’t stand this relationship dynamic. It’s more or less just interesting to realize and I always thought that all girls matured faster than guys but there must be either some early matured guys out there or some really immature (for their age) women.
Obviously I could go on to explain some other relationships seen as more common to see in public, such as same-sex couples, which I honestly find amazing, but that’s for another post. Overall, all I can say is as long as you’re happy, I don’t really care who you’re with. Whatever floats your boat and I’ll float mine my own way.
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